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My Latest Painting… How I Painted It & Why I Bothered

    Have you ever curled up in the fetal position and just wanted to no longer exist?  Just dissolve into the floor and no longer be?  Of course you have, you are a human being and you’ve been traumatized as we all are in different and horrible ways.  I’ve spent so many early mornings, so many late nights curled up like this on my shower floor, vomiting down the drain from anxiety and pain and unable to stand. This painting is my attempt to comfort you in those moments.  Trauma and pain have a very intense way of releasing […]

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One Of My Favorite Quotes To Help Release Anxiety

    Whenever I feel anxious (which is most of the time) it’s because I forgot that I am more than this one body, this one place in time, this list of things I have to do today. The minute I remember that I am a living soul, wearing a breathing earth suit made out of 13 billion year old stars, I can relax into the experience.    I talk more about that in my blog post a few weeks ago, showing you how I painted the Made Of Stardust art series. Back to my anxiety — and it always

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My Latest Painting On Letting Go Of Your Trauma Coping Mechanisms

    I painted this because I, like all humans, have gone through heavy, life altering traumas. And I, like all humans, have built up some impressive coping mechanisms to get me through. But sometimes those coping mechanisms are no longer needed. Sometimes we forget that the storm might have actually passed.  We forget to check to see if it is still even raining. So we walk in the dark heavy shadow of our walls and barriers, and we can’t even see the sun has started peeking out. I had an image of myself, walking with my umbrella over my

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The Dance… My Latest Original Painting And Why I Painted It

“What is to give light must endure burning.” -Victor Frankl     In turning 49. starting my 50th circle around the sun, I’m ever aware that time on this earth, any length of time, even one day of time, is precious.  I want to start thanking my body for the gift of waking up today in it.  And focus on what an honor that is, not the things I don’t like about it or the limitations I perceive from it. To remind myself, I wanted to choose a word of the year that evoked the energy of wearing my body in

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My Latest Painting: I Am Nothing, I Am Everything, All At Once

Today I want to share with you the latest painting I just painted. You can probably tell from some of my recent blog posts that I’ve been thinking a lot about the preciousness of our fleeting time on this earth.  About how our bodies reflect God’s divine design, and about the beauty that is inherent in the death transition.     So I wanted to paint it.   To somehow capture that moment when your physical body releases your energetic body and the dissolution of the tangible flows into the intangible.  How must that feel? I think how it must feel

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How To Feel At Home In Your Body

      Most of us live with a sense of not really inhabiting our body fully. We want things to change about our body or about our health before we will actually want to be in it. Or we have some judgement against it, or even disdain for it, on some level. We feel, subconsciously maybe, that our body is against us. We can feel that it’s too damaged by health issues to truly cherish. We have a half hearted sense of tolerating our bodies for the time being. No! You aren’t settling for that! Your body, in exactly

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Reflections On The Death Transition: What I’ve Seen, What I Feel

        As a physician, I’ve had quite a few experiences with patients who were dying, as well as patients who had near death experiences and told me about them. In medical school, I had an attending physician who had a heart transplant. He said as they removed his heart on the operating table, he went somewhere totally different than earth. After putting his new heart in, the surgeon shocked it to get it to start beating again. He says he felt that shock and felt himself feeling pulled back into his physical body and when he woke

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